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i really really luv super junior!! my fave is heechul, yesung, n ryeowook! teehee~
n umm..i luv to write stories n desing clothes ^^!
in this blog, i'll be putting my clothes designs, azn dramas n movies recommendations, song downloads, my stories, etc..
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Azn Dramas n movies I've watched ^.^
Here are some dramas i've watched, some are korean and some are japanese.. I recommend u to watch some of it, i'll post the details about teh dramas, k? o(^.^)o- Hanazakari No Kimitachi E
- Hana Yori Dango
- Nodame Cantabile
- Gokusen
- I am Sam
- Yamada Taro Monogatari
- Yukan Club
- Tantei Gakuen Q
- Ichi Ritoru No Namida
- Gakko Ja Oshireranai!
- Cat Street
- Kurosagi
- 18 vs 29
- Full House
- Goong/ Princess Hour
- Seigi No Mikata
- Zettai Kareshi
- Dragon Zakura
- Nobuta Wo Produce
- Brother Beat
- Yasuko To Kenji
- Bambino!
- Boku To Kanojo No XXX
- Hanyome To Papa
- My Boss My Hero
- Ryokiteki Na Kanojo!
- Tsubasa No Oreta Tenshitachi
- At Home Dad
- Seito Shokun
- Sassy Girl Choon-yang MOVIES:
- DoReMiFaSoLaTiDo
- My Sassy Girl
- 2 Faces Of My Girlfriend
- Windstruck
- Please Teach Me English
- Nana
- Hana Yori Dango Final
- Virgin Snow
- Unstoppable Marriage
- L Change The World
- Lovely Complex
- Death Note
- Ichi Ritoru No Namida the Movie
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Sunday, July 26, 2009
I almost kill myself...
i decided to sleep, i thought i might die in my sleep..but i wont fall asleep n started getting tired..so i went out of the bathroom n just stand in front of it..tears started coming out again and i went in to the bathroom again..i sat on the floor and continue crying..then i stand up and started craving the word "die" on the wall with my nails..i started thinking, "why am i doing this?"..i tried to stop but i cant, my hand just keep moving..its really hard to crave it so i put hand sanitizer on the wall n continue doing it..slowly, the word starting to come out and now i can read it..i think again, "no one can read this.." i saw a detergent so i get in and started tracing it out on the "die" i craved.."you can see it now", i thought to myself..so i stopped and look at the mirror, i see myself with tears on my face and i'm holding the detergent..
i've been hitting my head and not letting my self to breathe but nothing killed me..,i look at the detergent on my hand n i think, "i can die just by drinking it"..slowly, i raise it up to my mouth..i put it so close to my mouth, but my mouth wont open..the cup of detergent started to spill on the washbasin..the detergent touched my lip..i didnt lick it..no matter how close it is, my mouth just wont open..i became so stress and i spill all the detergent in the little cup on the on the washbasin...i put my hand on it and started putting on the wall, i have no idea why i'm doing it...then i spelled out the word "die" on the mirror..
i heard my sister n her boyfriend in the front of the bathroom..i cleaned everything..in the end,, i didnt kill myself..the reason why i want to kill myself is because of paskibra..yes, just because that little thing..i never want to do it but i have to because dad forced me to..i wear glasses and it gets on my nerves, it already broke so i wear it carefully so it wont tear apart again..but it always makes me dizzy and sometimes i just feel like i wanna step on it n burn it, i just want to get out of my life..n it keeps falling down, n in paskibra i cant really move..so it really gets on my nerves, but if i dont wear glasses i cant see really clearly n thats bad..n i dont have money to buy contacts..
my family in crisis..now i cant get things i want n that makes me really..sad n agry..i'm not selfish or anything, its just that i dont look the way i want to..i feel like glasses makes me ugly n thats why i dont have any confidence..n the clothes i'm wearing doesnt show my personaliy, the "asian fob obsessed fangirl with passion for fashion n makeup" me..i want to cut my hair, get circle lenses, trim my eyebrows, get some clothes from yesstyle.com and buy more kpop n jrock stuff!! thats what i want, if i accomplish all that, i wont get stress out with my look anymore!! i'll be confident n not worry about being in paskibra..BUT THERES NO MONEY TO DO THAT!! n thats making me stress!! n thats why i wanna die, i dont have to go through all this if i die..but why cant i kill my self??? WHY??
posted by: KatsumiNoDini
well killing yourself because you have no charm will not make you feel any better. Your charm is not the point of your life. Good guy would not care about your charm but it's about your PURE HEART. Let's think about the consequence after you killed your self. Think about your family, your friends and etc.
do you get what i mean?
Cheer up.. and be patient...
all your family love you.
so keep living your life!
JIAYOU!
By 
Tirz, at
July 28, 2009 at 10:46 PM
IYA TUH DEEEK DENGER WHAT ADULTS (eh? :P) HAVE TO SAY ABOUT THIS: DON'T DIE. PLEAASE. I mean, seriously; DON'T. Live on and eventually you'll get things you want in live.. OR EVEN BETTER! *I sound like the dudes from tv commercials again*. Really though, you never know what will happen in life. What you think is impossible CAN be possible. So you; YOU GOTTA BE STRONG, GOTTA KEEP YOUR HEAD HELD HIGH. (lololol Miley Cyrus' The Climb XD)
By ♥ Wid // Dea // 空, at
July 28, 2009 at 10:56 PM
lol..mbak dea, thats what i just said to you yesterday!! about "the climb", i said that song is kinda like my situation...n you do sound like those dudes in commercials hehe..anyway, thanks guys~ TvT omo, shankyu very much...i get it, i wont kill myself.. ^^